Thursday, December 4, 2008

Winter depression is trying really hard to sink in

Winter is my least favorite season & due to finances Christmas has ceased to be my favorite holiday. It seems I never have the money to buy the things people in my life want. Lately, I have trouble having the money for things like heat & gas for the van to get hubby back & forth to work, so where exactly money for gifts & donations to strangers & food for all the food drives is supposed to come from is beyond me. Even the kids are not enjoying the build up to Christmas as much as usual because they have been warned not to expect much under the tree. It is hard to find meaningful or significant gifts on our current budget. Maybe if I were a crafty person I could MAKE gifts, but sadly that is not a skill I possess.

The cold, gray, damp weather really doesn't help my mood, neither does the sick baby who not only is teething, but is also still fighting the stomach bug that the rest of the kids had earlier in the week. I need a break in a big way & it is not going to happen.

I'm trying to get started on decorating for Christmas. Unfortunately, even that is being depressing this year.


Kirsty said...

Hugs Denise. Life certainly sounds overwhelming. I know the feeling of not being able to get people what you want to give them, I think so many of us are experiencing the same. I hope that you will be blessed with a lightening of your heart and the things that you need. You so deserve them.

Janet said...

Denise, I'm sorry the financial struggles combined with the grey winter days are overwhelming you. Try your best to focus on what you can do instead of what you cannot. I pray that the burden will be eased for you.